We all know I am a worrier. I can’t help it, and my mind just seems to hold on to things and won’t let them go. Am I really worry about something that I need to be worried about or have I just made it up in my head? These thoughts eventually become so big that I feel like I am tripping over them all the time. I hate being like this. My counselor once told me that when I was growing up I had to be very tuned into people around me so to make sure I didn’t upset the apple cart I learned to adapt to other people to keep peace. So, I try to do better about this. I try to do daily meditations, prayer, and repeat affirmations. Most of the time this helps. Sometimes it doesn’t. There are things that come up and I am quickly able to let them go, but sometimes things come up and when it involves people I truly care about, I worry. Have I done all I could to help the issue? Have I done something to offend? Should I call the person and try to resolve it? Will that make it worse? It usually does.
Today was one of those days when nothing helped. I called my sister and voiced some concerns that I have and she very calmly encouraged me to not think about them, don’t worry about this or that, and after our conversation I did feel better. I am always thankful for my sister and her professionalism when it comes to resolving things. I find that we are all insecure at times, but truly we are only responsible for ourselves. I can only fix myself. I can’t be responsible for how everyone feels and I can’t fix everyone’s problems.